Time and time again I've contemplated staying a virgin until I get married. This thought crosses my mind about 4-5 times a year, and to me that seems like I should probably do something in regards to my thoughts if they've been happening since I was about 14 and I'm almost 17 now. So three years with the same thought cropping up, I need to do something with it.
I love the idea of waiting to marriage, and I believe it's what I should do, but then what if I say I'm going to do it, and then I have sex. I'd feel like I let myself down and not just myself but my parents and to some extent God. I mean, I'm not insanely religious, but I have come to the conclusion there is a God.
But then, if I do have sex before I'm married without making any promises to myself/family/God will I be happy about it? Do I want to have to live with the regret if I make the wrong choice? Because even though I might meet someone I really like and 'love' it probably won't be true love and if I do have sex with him, my virginity isn't something I can get back. It probably sounds really old fashioned but I value my V card, in a way.
It's a lot to contemplate but it's what I'll be doing for a little while.
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