No idea what to call this

Well, today I went to church. Yes, you heard read me right. Church. It was completely unexpected how much I enjoyed it. I've been to churches before and they've all been really boring but this one wasn't. The people were all really nice and they youth all sit together and the adults sit together but they're united as one people. I sat with the youths and I got introduced to so many people I can even remember their names and their was this one guy who was pretty nice to look at. It wasn't boring because you weren't being lectured at, we sang like 5 songs and they were happy upbeat songs you could dance to, and believe me, some people did. And when the pastor was talking about God, she related it to real life, and didn't drone on in a monotonous way.
I'm planning on going again next week because, I felt something. And not some guys hand creeping up my leg either. And there's a thing on Friday I might go to. We'll see how this journey goes but the start has been pretty sweet.

To me you're the world but to you I'm just part of the world

I hate the legal system, it's just screwed my family something rotten. And what can I do about? Diddly squat is what.

On the upside, I have a new ring which I'm in love with :). Can't really see it all that well but it has a little pattern on it, which I think is Celtic. Possibly.

Silver Ring Thing

Time and time again I've contemplated staying a virgin until I get married. This thought crosses my mind about 4-5 times a year, and to me that seems like I should probably do something in regards to my thoughts if they've been happening since I was about 14 and I'm almost 17 now. So three years with the same thought cropping up, I need to do something with it.
I love the idea of waiting to marriage, and I believe it's what I should do, but then what if I say I'm going to do it, and then I have sex. I'd feel like I let myself down and not just myself but my parents and to some extent God. I mean, I'm not insanely religious, but I have come to the conclusion there is a God.
But then, if I do have sex before I'm married without making any promises to myself/family/God will I be happy about it? Do I want to have to live with the regret if I make the wrong choice? Because even though I might meet someone I really like and 'love' it probably won't be true love and if I do have sex with him, my virginity isn't something I can get back. It probably sounds really old fashioned but I value my V card, in a way.
It's a lot to contemplate but it's what I'll be doing for a little while.

You love him. Don't use words I don't understand

Well, it's the half term and I can see that today is probably going to be the only decent of it. I had the house to myself and it was so nice. I mean, I like having company but I'd choose a night in by myself with a good book than a huge party. And it's even better having a free house to read that book in. I'm not confined to my room, and I don't have to worry about being in someones way. Although, I will admit I am feeling a little lonely in the whole love department, but I'm sure that'll sort its self out eventually.

Although I am lacking love which is aimed at me, I have plenty of love for a fictional character. Eric Northman, from the Southern Vampire Mysteries/True Blood. Alexander Skarsgard plays him in the show. Not the best picture, since he's all in character and looking a little hungry but c'mon! Look at that huge hunk of muscle, you wouldn't say no if he put his arm around you. Although, I do much prefer this picture:

 Ahh, jizz in my pants.
 

Moving on to pasteurs anew

I'm creating a new blog as I don't feel I can post on this one without getting judged for what I say. I shall use this one for the boring details of my life and everything else on another one.
Peace out suckers

I'm haunted...

In psychology today I found out I'm more of a Type A personality than Type B which means I'm more prone to stress related illnesses, but like anything it has it's flaws so hopefully I'll be fine.

Comic Relief is coming and in all fairness, I'm none too happy about it. I understand that they need the money, but doesn't everyone right now? Sure, they're worse off than everyone else but that's neither their fault or mine, it's their governments, so donating money seems kinda stupid if their government is just going to keep it for themselves. And the way they try to raise money sort of makes me not want to donate even more, they use guilt. I hate feeling guilty, and making someone donate out of guilt doesn't mean they're happy to be helping, their probably pissed off at being guilt tripped into it. I think you should only donate money if you care about the cause, the more you care the more you give. Like if I ever won the lottery I'd donate half to charity, splitting it between cancer research, helping people effected by rape - especially children - and towards some charity that tries to prevent homophobia. All three causes are important to me, and therefore I'd be glad to help, not made feel bad for not helping. Go ahead and donate if that's what makes you feel happy, just remember it's not for everyone and no one should be made to feel bad about not donating as you might not know their circumstances.