How in one day, everything can change

I've started looking at a friend differently in the last couple of days. I'm seeing them in a different way and I really like it. I mean, they seem concerned for me and are just generally being nice. Which is more than I can say about some who've been treating me weirdly recently.
But it's made me realise, I mean not that I didn't know this before, but we are constantly changing and evolving and becoming either better or worse people. I think some people I know seem to be changing in a way that I don't understand and I don't think I will because I know they won't explain it.

Oh well, I'm really loving this new view though and I hope it remains.

AHHHHH! Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1

Yes, I saw it on opening night. Yes, I stood in line for 2 hours and for half that time it wasn't really a line, just me and my friend. Yes, I picked over every minute detail. And finally, yes I have come to a conclusion about the film.
The film has some details absent that are in the book which I, personally, think were important. But I'm sure I'll learn to survive. They film is good but you have to separate it from the book to fully appreciate how awesome it is. However, it is much closer to the book than the past 3 have been. They followed the story line almost exactly, with as I said before minor bits missing.

Definitely going to go and see it again.

Clothes

I really want to dress in a more girly way. Instead of the tomboy way that I have been. I want to be able to wear jeans and my Converse but also be girly. Is it too much to ask for?
I love fashion magazines and that but I always think that nice clothes look like crap on me. I love buying fashion magazines and wasting my money on them because they always make me feel utter crap about myself. Although, I must admit, I generally buy magazines like that for the interview of the cover person.
I think I might try being a little more feminine, not much but a bit more.

Oops

Just realised this blog can be seen by anyone. Bit stupid really. But from now on I'll babble on about nonsensical things

Without direction

I have no direction in my life. My current aim in university but is that a direction? It doesn't feel like it, it feels like a goal.

I know many people grow up without relgion, I was one of them but I feel like I should have one. I don't understand as to why that is. I read up on religion, the religion in the news and negative views on different religions.

I am mentally lost and spiritually lost. I just want some direction.

Okay then...

I must secrete a pheromone that makes this one person basically ignore me about once or twice a month. I'm getting pretty sick of it. I mean they ignore me and then the second we're with everyone else, bam! Completely normal. I just don't understand. And the thing that really gets me is that this person means more to me than they'll ever know, unless I get really drunk and ultimately and unfortunately reveal how I truly feel.
I get it, they have family problems but please, name me 5 people who haven't got some form of crap going on in their lives at any moment in time. It's not an excuse to treat people - and by people I mean me - like shit.

Smoking

Everywhere I look there are campaigns about smoking, pretty much always negative and targeting teenagers and young adults.
They list the what smoking can cause in the long term and in the short term that you'll stink. You know what? Teenagers know this. We know smoking causes cancer, we know it stinks but we don't care. The people that write those articles probably smoked when they were teenagers and now look down on us for doing it. Stop being such hypocrites. We're teenagers, we experiment with sex, drugs and rock 'n' roll. So just let us do our thing and we'll let you do your boring, adult thing because in 15 years it'll be us and you'll still be complaining whilst forgetting what you did in your youth, whereas I'll remember and try to understand to the best of my ability.